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The Secret

I’m dating myself, but there was an old tv show I used to watch with my dad called, “I’ve Got A Secret.” There was a panel of celebrities who tried to determine a contestant’s “secret”– something unusual, amazing, embarrassing, or humorous about that person.

Many of us have or do have secrets too.   We keep them hidden and they keep us from walking fully in our destiny and living an authentic life.  Those secrets cause a root to grow deep in our hearts.  That root, another S word.  SHAME!

Shame is something that comes on us through the words or curses of someone else, the unjust actions of another, or as a result of our own guilt about a failure or sin in our life.  

Just think about it…..I know I heard these words from my mom…..”Shame on You.”  I know I felt it when I my sincere heart was judged or misrepresented, when I experienced a violation as a child, and even in the “religious” old way of thinking in the church.   

It’s a feeling you can’t escape that you are unworthy, unloveable, that there is something horribly wrong with you.  

It causes us anxiety, insecurity, bitterness, unforgiveness, and can even be the root of our rebellion.  

It’s a dirty little secret  that we seem to keep hidden for hours, days, weeks, months, and even years. And as we hold on to it because of our pride, it can lead us into depression, depression, and literally drive us crazy!  

So what do we do with it?  Joel 2  gives a great picture of God’s heart towards someone who is walking in shame, hiding behind the secrets and dark places in their lives.  

Verse 12….”Turn to Me with all your heart, with fasting, with weeping, and with mourning.”  Rend your heart and not your garments.   

What’s He saying?   I think he is saying come to me with your heart in hand.  Grieve over those places.  Cry before me.  Take it seriously.   Don’t let even eating get in the way.   Open up your heart. Let Me in.  Change your mind.   Say enough is enough!

Why would we do that?   Because God is gracious and merciful and has great kindness.   We don’t have to be afraid that someone will punish us or think less of us if we let out the secret before God.  Just the opposite.   We can anticipate God walking toward the sea of forgetfulness with our secret in hand, leaving a blessing behind Him as verse 13 says.  

For years religious ideology mixed with childhood trauma, caused me shame.  I was so afraid that even God would reject me.  But Praise God, I know now that His purpose is not retribution but restoration!  Verse 25 says if we repent (CHANGE OUR MIND), He will restore the years the locust has eaten…the crawling, swarming, consuming, chewing locust.   

I got sick and tired enough of the enemy of Shame devouring me, chewing me up and spitting me out that I decided to SAY NO MORE.  I decided to accept that God loved me just as I was and had much more for me.  I decided I would accept Him at His word and believe His love was everlasting and His plans for me were grace, mercy, and a bright future!   

The promise of God that goes along with saying no more to shame, presenting our hearts to Him, grieving through the loss and moving on is “You shall eat in plenty and be satisfied.  And praise the name of the Lord your God who has dealt wondrously with you.  AND MY PEOPLE SHALL NEVER BE PUT TO SHAME!  I AM IN THE MIDST OF YOU AND AM THE LORD YOUR GOD!”   (vs. 26 and 27)

God always replaces that which we give up to Him and this is no different.  He replaces Shame with SPIRT!  His Spirit (vs. 28-32)  And when His Spirit is poured out on us we are immersed in a New Secret.   It is the wine of dreams, visions, discernment, deliverance, and POWER.  We are no longer held back by the past, and are empowered to walk in the present with an eye to the future.  We are a Your Kingdom Come people, seeing with fresh eyes that are focused on things as they are in His kingdom instead of this world.  

No More Shame!  No More Guilt!   Full of hope, faith, and love.  Free to Be and Free to Become a man or a woman of destiny.  

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Ever felt like your heart(mind, will, and emotions) were a tangled mess?  That inner battle is a difficult one but I want to encourage you that untangling them is possible.

There are so many things that can cause uncertainty, insecurity, and confusion in our lives.  For me some of them were:  the idea of fairytale love, my childhood hurts and experiences, my misconceptions of God, and some of the things I had been taught incorrectly. Because of all those other things, I also was not able to see or move toward my purpose and I gradually moved toward a season of hopelessness and despair.

And then there is the women problem of hormones! At least once a month I could count on that tangled mess of emotions and believe me it did wreak chaos.  No matter how much I should have recognized it, I would forget that was why I was feeling bad.

I was not happy for sure and it began to effect everything–my marriage, my relationships with people, my finances, my ability to reach my goals, my children, and my faith.  Not to mention I had very little influence on others or the world around me because I had gone to that inner place where everything was about me.

But praise God, He untangled the mess.  He will do that for you too.

If you are without hope, hope in this.  Nothing you have done is unforgivable and nothing you are facing is unfixable.  First, Isaiah 44:22 tells us He has blotted out our sins and trangressions like a thick cloud!  He goes on to say “Return to me, I have redeemed you.”

The first step to untangling, is returning.  And why wouldn’t we return to someone who loved us enough to forgive us by sending Jesus!  Just like you can’t untangle your hair without picking up a comb and a brush,  you can’t find make sense of your tangled mess without accepting the truth of redemption and forgiveness.

The second truth is in Isaiah 45:2.  Understand that God never expects us to untangle the mess alone!  Here’s what He promises.  “I will go before you and level the mountains (to make the crooked places straight).  I will break in pieces the doors of bronze and cut asunder the bars of iron.”  Whatever the mountain or door that is keeping you from your destiny and calling, if you come to God, He will destroy the obstacles in your path.

And I LOVE VERSE 3!!!!  “I will give you the treasures of darkness and hidden riches of secret places, that you may know that it is I the Lord, who calls your name.”

Wow!  Do you get that?  If we return to Him, He will take the dark places and give us the treasures in them!  And we will find our true identity because we will know He calls our name!

I’m doing cartwheels inside right now.  I pray that you get this truth!   Don’t live in a tangled web of confusion any longer.  God is right there to untangle You if you come to Him.

 

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